As I have focused on becoming healthier- mind, body and soul - I've found myself engaged in some very therapeutic and soul searching conversations. While searching to reset myself (back to factory default settings) it was suggested that I take a walk in the past in search of significant places where I got lost. I had to dig through some scary, ugly, emotional shit, but there it was. I discovered two significant times that I had lost myself and I was there waiting for me to return and visit. The first time I was around the age of nine and life as I knew it changed all at once. A person that I was very close to left unexpectedly. What was left behind was chaos and darkness. A piece of me was gone. I was hurt and lonely. I tried to just fly under the radar and not do anything to add to the ever growing stress and conflict. I spent a lot of time by myself. Everything became routine and depressing. My escape was my grandmother. I could be messy and weird and ...
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